Back with a Vengeance

Wow.

Your initial response to my long-awaited return to the blogging world was an incredible one.

I can’t believe the number of views I got, and I was honestly touched by those that left comments.

What’s interesting about the comments is they come from a mixed group of people that know me in a variety of ways. Some are current co-workers that know somethings about me.

Some are former co-workers that know different things about me. One is a blog friend — and, um, one of my first true blog crushes (why? because if I can write anything like she can, then I know I’m good) — and another is someone who has known me since college.

An interesting perspective, and apparently, you all think I have something of interest to say — or at the very least, you, and the others that are reading me, have an interest in what I’m saying — if that makes any sense.

Maybe you do think I’m profound or something. Or maybe you like watching an emotional train wreck. I’m not sure. Either way, I am glad you are here.

And, remember, believe it or not, this isn’t about you. This is about me.

That’s a hard thing these days — about me.

You want openness? Well, then I only have one big question these days.

It’s kind of a doozy.

Who am I?

Because, honestly, there are days that I don’t know. And there are a lot of reasons for that — some of which you may learn about here. Some of which you may not. Jury is still out on that one.

But, I need to sort some things out — for me.

Some brief examples — just to give you a glimpse — if you, in fact, want to take it.

Why am I still struggling — and sometimes rather significantly — with Tim’s death?

Am I good dad? No, really.

And for the record, I’m not asking you to answer any of these. I’m just, well, sharing. You know, putting it out there.

Have I lessened my credibiility as a ‘good friend’ — which, by the way, is something I inspire to be for everyone — because of how I’ve treated what I thought was one of my closest?

How am I really going to deal with what will be, probably, the most significant loss in my life yet — and, if you believe medical reports, it’s one that’s not that far away (in the grand scheme of things).

How come I’ve let myself down on something I was doing so well with and so proud of — until the last half year or so?

So, yeah. There it is. Cards on the table. No elephants in this room.

This is what you came back for. Hope you do stay around. I understand if you don’t, but I certainly hope that you do.

You are more than welcome to stay. But just remember one thing —

It’s all about me.


7 Comments on “Back with a Vengeance”

  1. Stormy says:

    Back to back posts! Wow is right!!!

    Welcome back!!!

  2. jnyfritz says:

    i have got your back MOF!!!

  3. Carrie says:

    If there is one thing I have learned in this blogging thing its that blogs are all about the writer and should be. No holds barred, no judgement. Those that read need to do so with an open heart and open mind.

    Thank you for what you’ve said, for what you are saying and for what you may say in the future or not. Just know, true friends read/listen and stand by us. I’m here if you ever need anything.

  4. Molly says:

    Can I just say, I am SO HAPPY I get to see you tomorrow. And I won’t try to find answers to those questions, but know that when it comes to friendship, you’re not failing. Not even a little.

  5. Barb says:

    You are a wonderful friend… those who’s lives you have touched…are all the better for it….
    None of us are perfect…. We just try and do the things that we see as right..no matter how hard.

  6. MKinane says:

    Man, if you get an answer to that “am I good Dad” question, please share. Ask myself that one all the time.

  7. Nancy says:

    You’re a good everything Mike. Dad, friend, brother, son, radio broadcaster, tour guide — why? because you care and you are doing the best you can in the moment and that is all that can ever be expected. Keep writing….


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