Forty by Forty Frustration

That sound you here?

Yeah, that’s me. The winded me.

The first official workout on the elliptical just took place. And, let’s just say it beat me up. And, let’s just say it has opened my eyes up to the fact that I have a long way to go.

I know this. But it doesn’t make it easier. Not when I could barely make it 20 minutes on a machine that I used to go on for 40 minutes at a time without any trouble. But that was five years ago, when I was last exercising on a regular basis.

And, while there’s no doubt the Forty by Forty thing has been working for my waistline, there’s one very strong realization right now — it has done nothing for my cardiovascular health.

Which I knew. Which is why we bought the machine in the first place.

I mean, I’m realistic. I didn’t expect to jump on it and go crazy, but I did expect I would have an easier time than I did. And that’s what’s frustrating. That I let that part of me slip so much that I’ve now got to work incredibly hard to get it back.

But I will. I’m committed to this. I’m committed to making this a lifestyle change. When I used to be a gym rat, the cardio part was fun and, dare I say it, easy. The problem then? I still ate like crap so I never really lost much of anything.

And I never realized that. Until now. Now that I have proof of what better eating can do, I have to work harder to make the entire switch — of bringing the exercise level where it needs to be. Where it should be.

It’s only been about six months. This will be a journey. It has to be. It’s the only way I can make the changes I want to make. So, I have to be patient. Again, I know this. But it doesn’t always make it easier.

I will also get on a scale at some point by the end of the month, since that’ll mark the six months. I didn’t want to get on before and lock in on a number. I’m curious to where I’m at, but I know there has been change. My fear of the scale is being frustrated with the number or then trying so hard to reach the next number. That’s why I didn’t want to get on it. But, I think six months is a good time to check in, so to speak.

While tonight has been a bit frustrating, the overall fact is clear — I want to do this.

But, more importantly, I need to do this.

And I will.


12 Comments on “Forty by Forty Frustration”

  1. Stephanie says:

    Your attitude is admirable! Once you get back into the swing of exercising, you’ll be on that elliptical for an hour without being winded at all! Keep it up, Mike!

  2. dreamgrrl says:

    Hi Mike, I have been reading for a while through Molly – and I have never delurked until now – to say that i am SO SO proud of you and what you’re doing. You have no idea! And don’t give up on the exercise, it is a bitch and a pain in the ass but you will see results. I could totally see you in a magazine with your success story in a year! It really is wonderful.
    p.s. i’m a Marist alum too !

  3. Molly says:

    You can do it! I know you and you accomplish anything you put your mind to. Little by little and you’ll get there. When I started, getting over the two-week hump was the hardest. After that it’s smooth sailing.

    Good luck!

  4. Jennie says:

    Good for you!

    I’m in the market for an elliptical machine- are you happy with the one you purchased, and if so, do you mind sharing the model #?

  5. Barb (bp) says:

    you can definitely do this! It will take a little while to get back into the swing…but when you do you will be an eclipse maniac!

  6. cdp says:

    Hang in there, friend. I am so impressed with your honesty about this. I think that’s a really important part of being motivated, consistent, and successful. You’re doing a great job, and you’re totally going to make your goal. Just keep on chuggin. The elliptical, I predict, will be your bitch in no time.

  7. JenBun says:

    And you are awesome. And so motivational! I should quit reading blogs right now and go work out!!!

    Nah. 😉

  8. Melissa says:

    “that I’ve now got to work incredibly hard to get it back.” I don’t think you’ll have to work as hard as you think you will. Baby steps, and just keep at it. Pretty soon it will be a habit – a good one.

  9. heatherdc says:

    Keep on keepin’ on !! You’re doing awesome, and I can’t wait for you to see “that number” and be even more amazed at yourself and what you’ve accomplished! 🙂

  10. christine says:

    Yes, you will. And probably sooner than you think. I say 40 by 39 1/2…. even if it doesn’t have the same ring to it.

  11. JC says:

    Deep Down In Places you *WANT* to talk about

    We want you on that eliptical
    We NEED you on that eliptical

    And I would just ask that you say thank you.

    Or, how does the rest of this go?

    You’re Dang Right Renee Ordered that Code Red!

  12. Pessimistic Redhead says:

    I hate the freaking elliptical with the fire of a thousand suns. So I totally get your frustration. But you’ll do this, buddy. Hang in there! Good luck 🙂


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