Daddy’s Little Girl

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Erin Margaret — Daddy’s Little Girl 

You know, despite the look on this sweet girl’s face, being a parent isn’t always easy. Earth-shattering revelation, I know.

When Aidan was born, it was like, are you kidding me? A boy! Trips to Fenway Park, teaching him about sports, collecting baseball cards, riding bikes, playing video games. All things ‘boys’ do. I was convinced he and I would do those things.

And you know what? I’m still convinced that we will. However, if Renee and I are with him, I am second in his pecking order. It’s not even close. Mom is number one with him, bar none. It can be incredibly frustrating to be shunned by a three year old. I know he doesn’t mean it, and that things will change, but when it happens, that knowledge doesn’t make it any easier.

And, please, don’t get me wrong, we have a ton of fun. But when one of those ‘daddy rejection’ moments come along, it can be gut wrenching.

On the flip side, he and I have already started to talk about our first trip to Fenway Park together — most likely this year after his fourth birthday. He’s excited to see the Green Monster, Big Papi and to ride on a subway — especially if it’s “going to go underground.” Oh, and he wants to eat a hot dog, too.  At first, he asked if Mom and Erin were coming. I told him probably not the first time. He didn’t like it, but he got over it. So that was progress. And there will continue to be progress.

When Erin came around, I had doubts to myself of, hmm, she’s a girl. Can we really do this? Well, let me tell you, we can. And it’s fabulous.

Erin and I are fantastic at doing one thing together — falling asleep. My most favorite time of the day is when I get to put her down for bed each night. Renee is usually giving Aidan a bath (because, as you could guess, he hates when I do it), so my job is to then give Erin a bottle and get her down.

It’s such an unbelievable time for me. We go to her room, sit in the rocker and away we go. After she’s done with the bottle, we stand up and walk around for a bit, which is usually the time when I sing her a made up lullaby and just melt when she falls asleep in my arms.

I know, since I used the phrase ‘made up lullaby,’ you’re wondering what it is. Well, there are lots of versions, but the most common is this:

Close your eyes, go to sleep, rest your weary head.
Close your eyes, go to sleep, time to go to bed.
Erin Margaret, Erin Margaret, prettiest in the world.
Erin Margaret, Erin Margaret, daddy’s little girl.

The last few nights, it’s been great because she’s trying so hard to stay awake and be alert, but she’s exhausted, and as I hold her, I can see her struggle to keep the eyes open before they close from pure exhaustion. She’s looking right at me with those big blue eyes and it’s beyond compare. It really is.

And then, once they do close, we sit back in the rocker for a few minutes before I put her in her crib. Although, inevitably, those ‘few minutes’ can sometimes be up to an hour when I end up falling asleep with her on my chest.

There is nothing better than that feeling. My little girl in my arms, completely zonked out. So once I wake up, I put her in the crib, cover her up, lightly touch her forehead and leave her room, knowing that, yes, we’ve bonded.


25 Comments on “Daddy’s Little Girl”

  1. penelope23 says:

    Your Daughter is adorable. And your lullaby, just melted my heart.

  2. Fritz says:

    awww i have goosebumps! and boy dose she have you wrapped around her finger! as it should be of course! that is a great way to end your day!

  3. Jess says:

    This is sweet and beautifully written. Do you read Sundry? She writes about being the non-preferred parent in a painfully poignant way.

  4. Clink says:

    I second the heart-melting effects of the lullaby.

    And how delicious that child is. Feel free to bring your children this weekend so that I can GOBBLE THEM UP.

  5. Stephanie says:

    Oh my goodness, what a lovely post. Absolutely heart-melting to think about daddy and baby girl. So sweet!

  6. MELT MY HEART! What a tender way to end your day. What a tender memory you will be able to share with her. I love it!

  7. Sara says:

    You just seriously increased my baby fever, which isn’t good. I’m jumping on the heart-melting bandwagon, that was too too sweet.

  8. I second the Baby Fever. Which is why I’m backing away from this blog right now.

  9. Anna says:

    Oh. I might need to have a girl, too.

  10. Jennie says:

    You are so sweet. Made-up lullaby? Wow.

  11. JenBun says:

    That is SO sweet! And such a precious little song!

    I am my daddy’s little girl (still and always!) and my brother is totally “mama’s boy” … it just seems to be the order of things sometimes.

    That time you spend with your daughter will mean SO much to her as she grows up!

  12. heatherdc says:

    soooo cute! those are some serious blue eyes 🙂

  13. Barb (bp) says:

    she gets cuter with every picture!

  14. christine says:

    ooh, i like to make up songs, too! my favorite is “son of a coastie man.” “The only one who could drive a 110, was the son of a Coastie man…”

  15. Molly says:

    Mike! My heart has completely melted. That was adorable.

  16. pie says:

    Ditto what Molly said. That lullaby just melted my cold, cold heart. So incredibly precious

  17. erin says:

    aww – so cute! seriously, i love these stories!

  18. Pessimistic Redhead says:

    Man, this is so sweet. Your kid stories just melt me.

  19. Melissa says:

    Erin Margaret is adorable! How could you not sing made up lullabys and fall in love with her? Make sure you take her to Fenway park too.

  20. Stephanie says:

    You are such a great daddy!

  21. L B says:

    well, being a daddy’s girl I can see this relationship getting stronger and stronger. I don’t think my dad ever thought he would be a good dad of daughters but…he got two! And I have been called “the son my dad never had” haha! Get ready because I bet that baby girl will be more excited to see the green monster and to watch some baseball than even her big brother—we daddy’s girls dream big and do big things 🙂

  22. jessica says:

    she is adorable!

  23. Meg says:

    Erin Margaret! That’s my goddaughter’s name! (Margaret is a family name… she’s the 4th generation with it!)

    *found you thru Molly and Clink 🙂

  24. foo says:

    Hehe, just wait until your boy has a baby girl. Deja Vu all over again!

    The best thing about being a parent is you eventually get to be a grand-parent!

  25. name says:

    Nothing going on worth mentioning. I’ve just been letting everything happen without me these days. Today was a total loss. Not much on my mind recently.,


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